She tells her history in reverse - like Stuart, a Life backwards - starting with the new foster home she has at age eleven, with Jim Ivey and his family and working back to her birth mother who didn't love her. And the Iveys will not be her last home even within the book.
Olivia is the foster child from hell: she puts each new placement to the test by behaving as badly as she possibly can, as if forcing each foster parent (and one children's home) to fulfill her belief that she is unlovable and chuck her out.
But she has had some placements from hell too, from the terrifying abusive Violet to the bland "mummy and daddy" who adopted Olivia's younger sister Hayley but didn't want Olivia herself. There are some blood-curdling stories here, all of which combine to confirm Olivia's belief that "something went wrong when I was born."
It looks as if she might have a chance with Jim Ivey, who has custody of his own two children, Daniel and Harriet, and already fosters a teenager with a baby. They live in an old farmhouse, low and long, and Olivia soon finds out that it used to be home to a notorious criminal.
Amelia Dyer was a Victorian baby farmer, convicted and hanged for the murder of hundreds of her charges - and Olivia can see her. She can hear babies crying too and confuses the sound with the crying of Maisy, the fostered teenager's baby. Gradually the ghost of Amelia comes to dominate Olivia's life at the Iveys and leads her to do the worse thing yet in a foster placement.
|Sally Nicholls signing copies at the launch of Close Your Pretty Eyes|
If you thought Tracy Beaker was pushing the boundaries, read Close Your Pretty Eyes. The reader's heart breaks to see Olivia deliberately destroying every chance of a loving family life, time after time, because she just can't believe that anyone really wants her.
I found the ghost story almost an irrelevance. Olivia's story would have pulled me in just on its own without the supernatural element. But it is nevertheless terrifying.
And the ending, when Olivia is in her sixteenth home and writes to Jim Ivey asking him to forgive her and take her back, is magnificent. I won't spoil what Sally Nicholls does with it. In the five years since she won the Waterstones' Prize with her début, Ways to Live Forever, Saly nicholls has continued to surprise and enthrall.
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